Alumni of the Month Terry

Hi my name is Terry

I am born and raised in Prince George to two amazing and loving parents and one younger sister.

I always felt different and alone. I had feelings of hopelessness, at time’s questioning the desire to live. Knowing I was hurting those I loved creating self loathing. I was spiritually broken and my life had become completely unmanageable.

Now that I think about it addiction has always been apart of my life manifesting in many different forms. Video games, sports, gambling or even food. Anything that got me out of my self. It was a futile attempt to avoid from my inner emotions I was unable to process.  I was unable to express my self in any other way than anger, constantly pushing people away leaving me feeling alone and different.

In college I discovered drugs and alcohol giving me a temporary tool to get out of my self and feeling like I belonged for the first time.   It was fun until it progressed to an unmanageable level. I had feelings of hopelessness, at time’s questioning the desire to live. Knowing I was hurting those I loved creating self loathing. I was spiritually broken and my life had become completely unmanageable.

I decided it was time to go to addiction treatment, at The Last Door for the first time I learned to be honest especially with my self. I finally felt like I belonged somewhere and people understood me. My desperation turned to hope and by following suggestion hope turned to faith. I learned I could trust other people, developing genuine relationships. My new perspective on life as a result of doing the 12 steps at participating in Last Door’s treatment programs.

I live a life I am proud of now, doing my best to live by spiritual principles. My life is not perfect but I have the tools to live life on it’s own terms, having humility and using my support network. I trust if I follow the program I can get through anything clean.

Forever grateful, forever door boy.

Terry